I won a cookbook today! It might seem like a small (even minuscule) thing, but it’s gotten me thinking…
I feel different somehow. Luckier. Visible! I feel empowered to send some intentions out into the universe and to take action! And yes, I feel like buying a lottery ticket. Why not? Someone is going to win.
I feel like maybe I’m finally making progress in allowing abundance into my life. Seriously, I do. Historically I never, ever win anything. And it comes up a lot these days because bloggers are always doing giveaways and so I keep leaving my comment and joining the party. I know it’s all random, but still it bums me out a bit.
By the way, Rock Paper Tree Blog is having it’s first giveaway very soon! Stay tuned.
What I believe about manifesting abundance and receiving from the universe is that it’s all already there. It’s all right there waiting for me to allow it in. I’ve always felt such a certainty about that. I’ve believed deeply and simply that I would have everything I ever wanted. And as life has gone on and I haven’t gotten it, I started to look at what could be holding it up.
I never once thought it was not there for me. I know that I’ve been blocking it somehow, some way. Is it my fear? my lack of grounding? am I not committed enough to this lifetime?
Having my daughter gave me a huge piece of being grounded and committed to life. Before that, saying YES to love was a huge piece. But still, I could feel myself clenched deep inside. So I continue to try and relax and trust and allow.
And now I’m ready for more!